The Fear In Me

Today was the last 1/2 day for Liza and Alex. I taught at the gym this morning, mailed a package to my neices and then ran an address book over to Liza at school. (she has a summer birthday and I always forget to get the phone numbers of her friends) , anyway. Then I ran home to pack a lunch so that when the oldest two came home from school, we could head out for a picnic. We went over the water front in Columbia to watch the free lunch concert in the park. I love doing this, we park our blankets under the wonderful shade of these huge trees and there is a live band playing at the bottom of the hill. We all munch on our lunches while mommies gab and kiddos run around playing, and occationally smacking eachother with sticks. It is so nice, I love it. So today after the wonderful time at the park (which happens to be right across from Columbia Mall), we quickly hopped over to the mall to do a little shopping. Alex and Wyatt got a hair cut while I took the girls to Clairs to look at "the pretties" then we headed down to Disney store. Lucky us, they are having their Semi annual sale and so we lucked out with $2 flip flops, $2 disney toy cell phones, and >$4 for a 3 pk of under pants. We found a ton of deals, then of course a potty break had to happen, so Jeri ran to the potty with 'talia. While she was gone, I was manning the other 5 and was trying to get up to the register to pay. By this time, all were scattered and chaos was starting. Tori was climbing on the stroller to play with Katie. She was standing on the foot rest on the front. I said, "okay Tori, get down." To which she replied "Nooooooo, I don't want to..." (in her whiniest little 3 yr old voice). To which I thought FINE, and pulled the stroller back in order to turn it a bit and push forward, she survived the pull back, but the push forward didn't happen because the wheels were turned sideways so the stroller stopped short and she fell off. So now, one would think, yeah, so she fell off of a step that is what 3 inches off the floor, so what. Well she went smack straight onto her head. It was quite a thud as her little melon smacked the ground. I stepped around the cart and over to her and immediately noticed that her left pupil was HUGE and her right pupil was tiny. I swooped her up in my arms (only I accidental stepped on her hair and pulled out a huge chunk when I picked her up) * I know I know, I am the BEST mom * Anyway, so at this point she is crying, then all of a sudden she falls silent and goes completely floppy in my arms. I start yelling at her "Tori, Tori, wake up, Tori." Then I started blowing in her face, the lady from Disney store asked me if I wanted to call 911, then she started moaning and coming back to. *sigh* I kept her in my arms for about 10 minuets trying to asses her while frantically calling Brent on the phone to see if there is any thing I should be watching for now that she was back conscious. The ladies at Disney were so wonderful and tried so hard to help. Jeri came back from the potty sometime in the 10 min recover phase and was shocked to see Tori as the center of attention, and a chunk of her beautiful blond hair on the floor. (poor Tori) She stayed really sleepy for almost an hour after wards. I brought her right home making sure that she stayed awake the whole way with an ice pack that Jeri happened to have in her lunch box (from the picnic). Daddy checked her out, looked in her eyes with a light and such, and then ran all the Dr. test to see if she showed any signs or symptoms, and then declared her fine. She perked right up during her little Dr.daddy visit and was set to go. We headed out to Cicis Pizza for a end of school Celebration. The kids love it there. We had a great dinner, YUM CICIS, and then came home and ran the tests on Tori again. Tucked the kids in and then I blogged instead of cleaning my house. (he he) Any who as the night has passed, I have taken the occasional moment here and there and thought of how horrific it would be to loose a child. I keep making myself not think about it, but oh, what would I do. I plan to wake her up before I go to be, just to make sure that she is still okay. What a day. :-0